These thoughts came flooding back as I stood in the middle of this huge warehouse talking to my friend, Kim. I was grateful that she reminded me that day of where I had been only a few short years ago. And, Oh God… as I am feeling SO grateful that I am not there today, I feel so unworthy that His healing grace made such a difference in me that I no longer have to use that chair.
Hope When You’re Physically Down…Pain was the main focus of my life for so many years. It colored the way I thought and felt, and reacted to the world around me. I had to learn this the hard way. I used to beg and plead with God; “Please show me what I need to do, Please show me what I need to change, I will do anything to only get better.” God, in His wisdon knew that the lessons I needed to learn came only with time. As always, He sees “Eternity” and we see “right now.
Through a dear friendship God has shown me very recently that He continues to follow through with His plans for my life in awesome ways, but in doing so, He has ended up using my own life to complete His plans in the life of another.
For some reason, I had an intuition or a feeling that her sweet, inviting spirit, which could only be from God, could soothe my heart. I never got up the nerve to make that call on my own. God was leading me to take a step that I could not or did not take, so he took charge and made that first step for me. “For I know the plans I have for you…”
God turned the tables and amazed us both. His plans were two-fold. Silly me… to have thought God brought Laurie into “my” life to help “me” rise above situations I couldn’t handle alone. Do you see? Did you get this? Me… me… I was thinking only of me and my pain!
Oh, but God had GREAT plans for us that day! I took picture after picture after picture. The setting was perfect, the lighting was perfect, and Laurie looked beautiful. God was present at our photo shoot! I took 850 pictures that day, and these were the best pictures I had ever taken. I know it was because God’s hands were steadying my hands that day.